Help! My baby’s choking!

PANIC! PANIC! PANIC!

I usually let O taste my food and I had some pizza on Saturday which I put on her tongue to taste and she ended up biting  off a piece, before  I knew what was happening she was gasping for air, coughing and tearing. In a panicked state I started yelling and adrenaline kicked in, I didn’t know what to do so I started pacing around with O in my arms & I started shouting at Wayne who also was also panicking and shouted back at me with all the pressure I was putting him under! I Didn’t know how to stop her choking. All I knew was this had to stop and I will do whatever it is I must/can do to stop it. I even had the urge to break out of my apartment and start running to hospital with O in my arms. Wayne had to Google how to stop choking while I walked around panicking with O in my arms trying to get the food out of her mouth. She actually stopped choking on her own after a minute which seemed like 30 minutes of my life.  Oh God I have never been so scared in my entire life! I have never ever felt those feelings, I don’t even know how to describe it. And after it was over I was depressed at what I put my daughter through, what kind of bad mum lets something like that happen? I felt so ashamed, sad and & angry at myself.

From that point on Wayne and I have come up with the rule that O will not be given anything big to taste, she is a big girl now and her reflexes are super fast so she can bite off anything. She will not play with any plastic or really anything that she can choke on. Of course we never gave her something she could choke on but in a sense that we are extra vigilant about it now. That apart, I feel as though I really need to have more knowledge about what to do in these situations. I need to find somewhere that I can take some classes, does anyone have any suggestions?

Long story short, Olive is absolutely healthy and happy, and thats how we are going to keep it!

#Confessions